올해 들어서 성경공부 모임에서 디모데 전후서를 공부하며 인도하고 있습니다. 유명한(?) 말씀이 몇 개 있긴 하지만, 디모데전후서는 그리 자주 언급되는 책도 아니고, 바울이 사역자인 디모데에게 권고하는 내용인지라 그렇게 저에게 재미있는 책은 아닙니다. 논란이 되는 내용도 꽤 있고요.. (예를 들어 2장). 아무튼, 디모데전후서 성경 공부를 인도하기로 했고, 총 10장인데 지금 디모데전서 5장까지 했으니 반을 한 셈입니다. 그리고, 빨리 디모데후서 4장을 끝내는 때를 학수고대하고 있습니다.
성경 공부 준비를 위해, 성경을 어떻게 해석해야 하는지가 상당히 골치아픈 문제가 되었습니다. 예전에는 해석하기 난해한 구절이 있으면 그냥 ‘아몰랑’하고 넘어갈 수 있었지만, 이제는 그런 구절들을 책임을 지고 ‘해석’ 혹은 ‘생각’을 나누어야 하기 때문입니다. 특히 디모데전후서는 바울이 디모데에게 개인적으로 보낸 편지, 그 때의 에베소 교회의 상황, 문화적인 상황 등이 고루고루 섞여 있기 때문에 해석의 걸림돌들을 이리저리 넘어가는 것이 어려웠습니다. 해석에 해석을 거듭하다보면 소위 ‘꿈보다 해석’ 식의 해석이 되는 것은 아닌지, 원문은 너덜너덜해지고 해석만 남아버리는 것은 아닌지 생각이 되기도 합니다.
다른 사람들의 여러 해석을 찾기도 하면서, 난해한 구절들에 대한 ‘극단적인 해석’ 또한 많이 있음을 또한 알게 됩니다. 소위 말하는 문자주의나 자유주의같은 해석 말이지요. 하지만, 이런 극단적인 해석은 무리수가 많고, 또 성경을 그렇게 보는 것이 올바른 태도일까하는 의구심을 갖게 합니다. 예를들어, 어떤 분은 교회의 제도적인 문제를 문자적으로 따르지 않는다고 해서 현대 교회의 문제의 원인을 모두 그것에 두기도 하더라고요.
양극단의 해석들을 바라보면, 결국에는 두 극단의 절충점을 찾아가는 변증법적인 접근이 진리에 접근하는 합리적인 태도인 것 같습니다. 그런데, 양극단이 너무나 멀리 떨어져 있기 때문에, 중간의 어느 위치가 가장 진리에 합당할지 선택하는 문제가 남아있습니다. 또, 이런 변증법적인 선택은 딱부러지는 해석을 내놓을 수가 없기에, 생각하기에 불편하고, 시원하지도 않고, 1+1=2와 같은 명확한 정답을 알려 주지도 않는 것 같습니다. 하지만, 성경 말씀으로 악함을 support하거나 성경을 무시하는 극단보다는, 시원하지도 않고 헤메이는 것 같지만 그 중간에서 옳은 의미를 찾기위해 고군분투하는 것이 진리를 대하는 성실한 자세가 아닐까 생각합니다.
아무튼, 결론은… 힘듭니다.
I watched a musical <Notre Dame de Paris>, which is from Victor Hugo’s novel, with my wife and family in last April. It was the best musical I have seen. Story of the musical is good as the original work. Beautiful songs and acrobatic dances were also so impressive to me. Performance of actors was charismatic, especially Jong-won Moon’s performance was. It was also good that the spirit of freedom and revolution was inherent in the musical, which was originally French work. I am humming songs of the musical recently.
Nowadays, I am impressed by the words of Quasimodo’s song – complaining his ugly looks and unfair world to God.
And on which sideis God? On the side of monstances? Or on the side of those who pray morning and night?
This Jesus that we so adore has He always preferred the three wise men and their gold above us poor shepherds?
There are many reasons why men are blocked to God. I think unfairness and irregularities in the world is one of these reasons. Christians sometimes doubt God’s goodness due to unpairness and pain in the world. I also do not have clear answer about this question.
Recently, many people become anti-christian in Korea, so I feel heavy in my heart. Korean president Lee, who is an elder in church, is senseless and dishonest. He also disregards most citizen’s demands. Many people go to church in order to get more money and power. Some pastors support fault conservatism. Those are who govern and lead the nation, but I am so suspicious what they live for.
Jesus Christ came to earth with humble appearance in order to save people from their sins. He became a friend of humble and lowly people. He was turned away from those who had powers. But people who have powers and much money are welcomed, but humble and lowly people are shunned in church. These phenomena have got worse since church had powers of nations. Then, where can those who are not christian find God? It seems that the beautiful figure of church is far from the humble Jesus’s appearance. Church may also increase unfairness and irregularities of the world and blocks the people from God.
Christians should be different from the appearance of this world, but they more follow up powers of world and ignore the humble people. Additonally, they are so stubborn that they don’t listen to other opinions. However, they say that God is with themselves. But, I believe that God look for humble and poor people. Where is God? He is beside those who seek for God humbly with lowly soul.
Last Sunday, Shelley Hundley, who is a director of worship and praise in IHOP (International House of Prayer), preached at our church. She delivered a message about God’s beautiful and glorious image described in the Revelation chapter 4.
It seems that Shelley values to seek and pursuit beauty in God above everything else. I think that the glorious image of God, who created whole space and things, can’t be imaginable. The glorious image of God is described in the Revelation chapter 4, which is written by St. John. St. John saw the glorious throne of God in an illusion when he was in Patmos island – a place of exile.
However, Jesus the son of God came to the earth with miserable image. He threw away the glory in Heaven. Shelley said that it is a very big miracle. The Bible describes that Jesus was weak and had an ill appearance. Glory was hidden in Jesus. But St. John saw the glorious image of the Lord Jesus. It is a spectacular and fantastic scene above all. Shelley delivered God’s glorious image under the inspiration of holy spirit, and I was moved by her preach.
I don’t know what is beauty in God. Shelley said that she also made an effort to know beauty in God. I guessed whether the world is beautiful when I was asked, “Is God beautiful?”. The world is not beautiful. It seems that It is not easy to find the beauty of God around the world. The image of world is getting far away from God’s image.
Shelly said that God is calling us, “Come up! Come up to the throne!” However, I am so busy to forget my thirst to God, and I can’t think about glorious image of God. Now, calling to the glorious throne of God is like dim light in the dark world. I wish I would follow the light.